For about 39 years I never worried about my weight. In fact, unless I was pregnant or nursing, I didn’t even have to watch what I ate. (what a $(@&* …. I know.) I was a comfortable size 6 at about 5 foot 6 inches. I always felt sorry for overweight people. I felt sorry for women who were losing their hair. I would be comforting and say, “No, you’re fabulous!” But inside I was feeling, “Please God, don’t let that happen to me.” Truth. Ugly, but true.
I didn’t want to get “old” – not that at 41 I am but let me just say ladies …. at 40 the tides become to come in and they just aren’t soft and subtle.
So here I sat, a 41 year old who suddenly weighed 234 pounds YES YOU READ THAT RIGHT. I went from a nice steady 140 to 234 pounds …..and had lost some height and stood at 5 foot 5 inches. I’d lost so much hair that from any direction you can see how white my ugly scalp is. I was miserable. What happened to me? Life I suppose. My medications for anxiety and depression had some to do with it (Weight gain side effects are for the birds, and my husbands 4th tour overseas with the military didn’t help). But then, I quit smoking on top of everything. I was a smoker, yes. For 28 years. Two packs a day. Until Pneumonia nearly killed me about 8 months ago. So instead, I ate. Ugh.
Skinny girl in a fat body. I mean, for those of you that have known me through the years thank you, thank you, thank you for not mentioning WTH has happened to me! I sware to you ….. just last week I was walking by a mirror in a department store and I thought, “Oh, gosh, that poor girl.” Holy crap. That girl was me. ME. The girl who can’t get up the stairs without stopping to take a break. My ankles feel like they’re breaking, I eat fifteen tums a day, and my bowels? Oh TMI.
So …. when my co-worker started feeling healthy and losing weight on a cleanse of course I wanted to hear about it. Then, I learned it was an MLM. The Arbonne Cleanse. Ugh. Not my first rodeo here folks. Been there, done that. However, she was so excited about her own success I couldn’t help get excited with her. I don’t have to sell it, just use it, right?
My husband was leaving for two months for Leadership training with the military and I knew, if I was going to make a move on my health and weight …. now was the time! How fun to surprise him! Hmmmm …. how to really stay motivated? My son! I have a 21 year old son in the military also who happens to be living at home right now (no pressure from me to move in whilst dad is gone. lol), and I wanted to see if we could do the cleanse together. Mama and son. He was in. Not just in. He was helping me afford it. *insert tears.
We met Heather on a Thursday night in her new home, she was literally just moving in. She was friendly, open, warm and inviting. She also had a military background. She explained the product, let us try some stuff, and then stepped back.
I told her and my co-worker we would think about it. But, we were in.
Hence the food prepping tonight and the preparations to start this 30 day journey. Here, you’ll find my “Before” picture.
Here were my top 3 requests:
1.) It’s gotta be easy.
2.) It’s gotta be easy.
3.) It’s gotta be easy.
Then, I learned I have to give up coffee AND martini’s. Holy smokes. So, tonight, I’m getting ready to dig in tomorrow. My meal prep’s are all done for the next few days and I’m about to embark on a new journey for 30 days to change my eating habits and begin to develop a healthy lifestyle. Please, don’t ask questions tonight ……. I’ve got a full martini and I’m enjoying the living heck out of it! 🙂 Love you all and I’ll keep you posted!
If you’ve done the Arbonne http://www.arbonne.com/pws/homeoffice/tabs/home.aspxcleanse, let me hear about it!